WILL

“someone whom you want to be a better person for, not worse;

hold out for that.”

-Nights in Rodanthe

live

“Please don’t let me stop thinking and blindly accepting. I want to taste and glory in each day, and never be afraid to experience pain; and never shut myself in a numb core of unfeeling, or stop questioning and criticising life and take the easy way out. To learn and think; to think and live; to live and learn: this always, with new insight, new understanding, and new love.”

the 4 letter word

i guess its not that i flippantly declare my love for others, or how easily i give my love to others, or how the 3 words ‘i love you’ can come out of my mouth without difficulty.

its more about WHO i give my love to.  and so far, i can say most have not failed me. i can proudly say that at that moment when i told them that i loved them, i meant it wholeheartedly. we only live life once, why ration your love? if you have that much love, SHOW IT. why wait, why hesitate?

 

xxx

constant

 

“Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same”

release

lost what i used to call ‘number one’

need to find a right replacement

spinning around, running forward

but realising i didn’t move at all

neglecting my past, ‘living’ the present

regrets, forsaken, forgotten

making guesses painting pictures,

never had one with vibrant colours

tongues wag, voices heard, Man judge

when would we stop caring about what others say?

lights dimming, trouble breathing, vision blurring

i need someone to point me somewhere, quick.

happy daze

things that make me happy dazed. ((:

introducing to you, GOLDILOCKS! she’s gold, not black ok. pardon my lousy editting that made her look black. she’s my baby and she’s only 2 days old. yes and she’s called goldilocks cos my thumbdrive is called thumbelina and they can all be characters of fairy tales but most importantly, i couldn’t think of a better name. SUGGESTIONS ANYONE?

thank you LDX!

BF and the best exam welfare package ever! thanks for all the love. ((:

            

ABOUT A WEEK BACK:

            

AND, we ran into anna and hongjing at zouk on friday when we went to celebrate thad’s birthday there. ZOMG LA. its like the last place i’d ever think i’d run into anna!

love you miss you so glad we’re gonna meet up soon! ((:

 

GOLDILOCKS UPLOADS.

to HDD and uncle gary: sorry it was picasa that cut your heads off, not me ok.

          

              

SOME THOUGHTS:

- the world can think whatever they want, but we decide for ourselves how we want to live our lives. living the life we love, loving the life we live. that’s enough. ((:

- ambiguity is the sweetest, seduction is the most beautiful.

- when you start to feel replaceable, maybe its time to loosen the grip and let go.

 

toots, rui.

WAIT

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don’t want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren’t as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they’re amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who’s brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.

-

我们真的长大了。