good night tigersss

reading my old blog made me realise that i was much happier last time, abt 1 or 2 yrs ago.

maybe life has become more complicated; or maybe its myself who has chosen to complicate things. i really don’t know.

listening to that song reminded me of you. thanks for being a part of my life, once. and i do miss you.

sometimes you know that the feeling has gone wrong yet you just keep trying to correct it, but deep down you know it’s no use at all. maybe it’s time to slow things down and play it in rewind.

 

 

i don’t know what has come over me.

flash

days have gone by in a flash so bright and fast that i’m like less than 1 week away from hall foc XEVIVE’08 and like 2-3 weeks before sch reopens!

- i’ve finally finally gotten myself out of the rut of sian-ness and feeling more ready and high for hall foc as a GL. and our og has climbed its way up from being the almost non-existent one with a stupid name ‘teh-q’ (which stands for earth in hokkien cos my og is supposed to be earth. others are water, wind and fire) to the most promising one called ‘YASHA’! i shall make use of the things i’ve picked up during CS FOC to make our hall foc a better one. ((: i’m just kinda worried that i’d be so tired everyday cos judging from the programs, i think my body would have no chance to take a break. wish me all the zee best please!

- ‘The Dark Knight’ is sucha MUST-WATCH!

- i kinda can’t wait for sch to reopen. i miss my friends and lectures even, but not tutorials cos i’ve always hated them. i even miss hall life- my bed rocks. i have a proper wardrobe. (yes the one at home gave way cos got too much clothes and now all my clothes are in gigantic Sim Siang Choon plastic bags (courtesy of jie’s company) i miss my hallies. my favourite canteen 2 beefball soup. late night chats and supper when we got the car. volleyball at the carpark with amanda or BF when she stays over. bah but i so do not miss canteen food eeeeeeks.

- heart heart meeting my friends. anna banana, val, zhi. sorry my i’d be super busy for the whole of next week i can only meet the rest of you after my camp!

- heart heart chabs cos she’s specially helping me move back to hall. and driving me all the way from my home to hall! arg so schweeeeeet! ((:

- after the past 2 days stayover in hall with the gls, i’m more and more ready for camp wheeeeeeee! and i have super funny fellow gls. we actually went for prata near NUS at like 5am in bingyao’s BMW. and all of us totally didn’t realise it’s a BMW until we got back to hall. no wonder we created sucha stir when we parked outside the prata shop la!

-just finised calling the 20 freshies in my og. they sound promising yay! BEST OG WOOTS!

- MY BLOODY CAMERA IS SPOILTTTTTTTT! THIS IS THE SADDEST THING OF ALL EVER. all of you shud know i love love my camera. )): SOMEONE BUY ME A NEW ONE PLEASE! )):

some last photos before it died.

paiseh this is not from my cam, but it was the only photo of the gang in zouk last wed.

not my cam again. PENNE’S OG OUTING AT TIMBRE!

SILLY YILING! ((:

finally from my cam. LOVE YOU WANYI!

VALERIE TAN!!! FINALLY AFTER SO SO LONG! ♥

anna banana shopping with you rocks! love you so many! and thanks for the gladiator sandals. WE MISS YOU JEAN!

 

thats all!
mourn for my camera everyone )):

childhoodies love

boooo this post would be a feature on the little things that we’ve hung around with in our childhood days; our little treausures! how fun reliving those days! ((:

1. MCDONALDS BIRTHDAY PARTY
how many of us longed to hold our birthday party in Mcdonalds when we were in kindergarten and lower primary!

2. ZERO POINT
shitty with my short legs i can never get past level 2 or something! and i’d go to the dept stores to buy rubber bands and force my mum to help me make the erm, rope?

3. PLAY PRETEND
no peekchars but i’m pretty sure all of us did that. this is like one of me and my cousins’ favourite game. the storyline ranges from those happy family kind, power rangers and even POWs omg! cos there was this show called ‘The Price of Peace’ and kelly and i would act as the Japanese soldiers and we would torture poor kevin who’s acting as Lim Bo Seng (he didn’t have much of a choice). and zomg we would just ask him to lie on the floor and kick and beat him up while sprouting chains of words that we thought at that time sounded like Japanese! we didn’t really like use force to beat him or what, but we loved to play this at playgrounds so erm, we kinda attracted much attention! WAHAHAAHAHA!

 

4. RING POP
luxury snack of those times! even though it can be quite a mess with saliva dribbling down our fingers by the time we finish eating it, we still love it! grape flavour is ZEE best!

 

5. POWER RANGERS
TELL ME WHO DOESN’T LOVE THEM PLEASE! and which girl won’t fight with their friends or cousins to be Kimberly the Pink Ranger?! no little girl would really wanna be Yellow Ranger leh sadness. my personal favourite is Tommy, the green one who can transform to white! SO HOT! and jason you stupid shit, you like the Red Ranger simply cos he’s also called jason. -.-

 

6. SNEAKERS WITH LIGHTS
they were like the hottest shoes can. and you can see little kids wearing them everywhere, on the streets and even in school!

 

7. PADDLE POP!
paddle pop WOW, paddle pop, SUPER DUPER YUMMY! so colourful so pretty!

 

8. STICK-ON EARRINGS
my mum didn’t allow me to pierce my ears at that time so i had to resort to this. they even package it in such a way that it’s like a calendar so you can use like one for each day for the whole month. i rmb i wore it to school and got caught by the stupid discipline master. ZOMG do yall rmb the magnetic earring that looks like a real ear stud cos the magnet will ‘kiap’ your ear lobe thus can stay in place. but it hurts and drops super easily (i lost many pairs!)

 

9. YO-YO
i forgot the brand of the yo-yo that was like super hot, but there were like commercials of it everywhere! i could do all those stunts like ‘Walk the Dog’ and ‘ Baby in the Cradle’ la ohmytian!

10. SAILORMOON BACKPACKS
well i know there are others who had backpacks with different cartoon characters la, but most girls use sailormoon i think. i used sailormoon for like 4yrs, just change a new design with every new school year. and i only like Mercury and Jupiter, don’t like the rest! WAHAHAHAHAS!

 

11. IDOL CARDS
yes i used to collect them. and i had so much that i used like 5 big cardholder files to contain them. i don’t know who are the idols on the cards half the time, but you can’t choose cos you just insert 20 cents (40 cents for the shiny ones!), turn turn turn and see what comes out. omg i think i invested a fortune on all these! ooooh i rmb there are sailormoon cards as well! thomson plaza was our favourite place to go ‘dong’ the  cards cos ah-ma’s house was around there!

 

12. BRICK GAME
what’s the proper name for this game arh? but i vaguely rmb i was quite zai and could clear more levels then my cousins who were much older than me! bah YOUNG GENIUS RUI!

 

13. WATER BOTTLE WITH STRAP!
boooo i hated those straps cos they’re like so constricting on the neck but my mama loves to buy them for me cos she insists that my water bottle won’t get lost when they are strapped around my neck, but they still do leh!

 

well that’s all the stuff that i can think of now. my dear friends, if you have other memorable childhood treasures, do just drop a comment here ok? wheee so fun! ((:

 

 

♥

 

 

 

 

for all of you

i think i’m suffering (not indulging ok ahlong) from post FOC syndrome cos i miss everyone soooo badly!

to CHABS:
you’re one of those i’m very fortunate to have made friends with over FOC. i guess it’s also cos we had so many friends and things in common to begin with. we even don’t like the same people since like yrs ago wahaahas! truthfully, i thank god that you are in my life and i know that you are here to stay even after 394895 years. thanks for always driving Toby over to pick me up before meetings and sending me home before you go pat-tor. hoho. i’d always remember the close to 1hr Toby rides, eating at 85 and simply just gossiping on the phone or msn for like the whole night, cos they are some of the fondest memories in my mind. i think our friendship has already transcended the official FOC matters, and i already do treat you as a dear friend in my heart. i know you’d be there for me in bad times, be happy for me when i’m happy and simply loving me for who i am. and you can expect the same too. I LOVE YOU CHABS! <3

to THAD:
thanks for always letting me order you around to take this and that and never ever scolding me for that cos i super lazy hoho. i was really touched when you were there to help me wash the chicken innards when no one else dared to. thank you so much, without you i would have died in that stench alone! you’re a great clubbing and alcohol buddy (mahjong coming up!), and i’m thankful to have known you thru FOC! ((:

to ADELINE:
miss chilli padi, my dear friend ever since meepok days. even though i always scold you, i really appreciate you as one of my progs cos you are so efficient and i never had to worry about things not being settled for your programs cos i know you would have taken care of everything. i’m thankful for train rides from and to the east when we can simply talk non-stop. love you dear, thanks for helping me out in this.

to BF:
i love you BF, and its more than what i can say la. you are one of the greatest treasure i found in this FOC, and i am really thankful to know that you will always be here in my life – taking care of me, listening to my incessant complaints and simply being there when i need you. like what you wrote on my birthday book, i know you’re here to stay. thanks for believing in me and not judging me for what i do but rather loving me for who i am. i just regret that we didn’t get to spend much time together this FOC, but nevermind, this sem we finally have the same tut hoho! lubchoos loads!

to LAU QQ:
my dear qq-san aka carrot dajie, i really regret only getting closer to you towards the end of the FOC period but nevermind we still have 3 more yrs in CS. being one of the few hallies left, come find me for dinner if alvin got no time ok! i’d fill you in on everything that you missed out in my hip-and-happening life! (joking la!) thanks for opening up to me about your problems, i really appreciate that. even though i didn’t help much, i’m really happy for you that it’s over. one big thing about you that really amazes me is your strong family ties and how you would always try to rush home for dinner. i’ve always thought that i can’t seem to feel you as older than me but recently i can, not bcos you getting chao lao or what. just that i can feel you taking care of me as a elder sis! i thank FOC for giving me a dear friend like you, and more to come ok! ((:

to JEA:
jea my deepest regret about this FOC was not helping you as much for FN as what i promised you and myself to. sorry that you had to carry this humongous load alone, and having to do mass dance as well. i’m really very thankful that everything turned out alright in the end. and thank you so much for putting in your ALL, 100% and even more into this FOC. i’d always remember the long talk we had over dinner one day and what i want to say to you is that you’ve got a friend in me so no matter what happens, you can come to me ok? i love you loads!

to AHLONG:
thank you thank you THANK YOU! you are seriously the greatest asset of this FOC main comm, cos you are zhuobo-baokaliao! i’m really really grateful to have known you thru FOC bcos you have helped me in a million and one ways! it goes beyond all the advice, the ready ears to listen to my complaints and grunts and the coaching for schoolwork. you are really like a big bro to me but now that you don’t stay in hall anymore, i don’t know what to do! )): thanks for being there for me thru my dark times during the study period and i know our friendship will last even though FOC has ended. love my hokkien msn and same frequency (not only dirty things ok) partner!

to JOAN:
i don’t know what we would do without you! you are like my 5th programmer cos you are forever helping us to settle our logistics! with you, i don’t have to worry a single bit about log cos i know you would sure settle it and it sure is a big load off my mind. thanks for being concerned about my life and speaking into it. what i promised you to get my life together, i’d see to it, but must continue to help me ok? i miss BS803 lectures with you and sheila watching movies, eating macs and complaining about the disgusting chilli sauce smell. even though we are going completely different track, i know we would still be here for each other. i’d always be there to nag you to wash your car ok! <3

to DANIELLE:
if there wasn’t FOC, i wouldn’t have found such a wonderful clubbing buddy like you. what i feel is that for me and you, its not just friends but more of a sisterhood. i’d never forget the times when we go crazy in zouk or go crazy during a meeting. your sensitivity is something that greatly touches me cos you never fail to notice that i’m feeling down or need someone to listen to. you don’t hesitate to give all that you have to those around you- the love, care and concern. i’m sad that we didn’t get to spend much time tog during FOC, but wednesdays are ALWAYS our bonding days right? ((: I LOVE YOU MANY DANIAOS, WEEBEE!

to AHBEAR:
EXTINCTION! bah thanks for always speaking into my life. even though many others think you look like a little boy, i’d always remember all the encouragement and advice you gave me as a big brother. you are another great person i have known thru FOC and i know i can turn to you when i run into any problems. your love for michelle and what you are willing to sacrifice for her is truly touching and i’m already looking forward to being invited to your wedding! thanks for being there for me and not judging me for what i do. brother bear, you’re awesome! ((:

to SITI, KEAX, ZIJIE and JASMINE:
i’m really sad that we didnt get to know each other better over this FOC period, but no worries we have 3 more years to go. thanks for being in this committee with me and together, all of us made FOC a success. you guys have helped to hold the camp together and i am truly glad to be in this committee with this bunch of wonderful people. you guys rock! ((:

to JASON and JAC:
being in HC together with yall is one memory deeply etched in my heart. the first 3 days of camp was seriously hell but i’m thankful we came out of it unscathed (minus some minor injuries hoho) and being closer friends. thanks for being with me thru this scary period and helping to make HC a success. love yall!

to ZHI, SHEILA and KRISTLE:
my closest girlfriends, thank you all so so so so so so so much for supporting me in this FOC. ZHI, you are sucha darling cos you never fail to listen to me whine and then bring a smile back onto my face. SHEILA, your hugs and words when i was most stressed up really encouraged me loads. KRISTLE, your support during seniors camp and FOC itself has touched me greatly and i can’t thank you enough. 
I LOVE YALL LOADS x10,000!

to my fellow MEEPOKERS, thanks for creating another BEST OG in Penne and giving me somewhere that i can feel belonged to. FOC reminds me of our funny times together at abt the same time last yr!

to all my friends, i love you deeeeeeeeep deeeeeeeeep and i would trade the world just for you. <3

 

 

LOVEEEEEE,
rui <3

a man can never be rich enough to buy back his past

i’m too tired from who-knows-what to type in proper sentences again.

- supposed to meet the hall ogls for kboxing but i seriously have no voice and very very very tired (from who-knows-what again!) but yes yes yes i’m gonna meet them for dinner though. and mr marcus liew is flying off to exoti egypt tmr wahaahaas!

- speaking of hallies, i miss pasta, bao and lala loads loads. noodle and burger too! pasta is too busy pat-tor-ing in USA to care about me right! thank god pasta managed to get a rm and i really really hope bao can get too. if not i’d be so so lonely in hall! dinner gang only left with like what how many people and with marcus liew moving to hall 16, its even worse!

- i’ve painted my nails green (my favourite colour!), a very odd shade of green.

- can’t wait for tmr night zomgazers!

on another note, i don’t feel ready to be a gl once all over again. being in cs foc main comm has toned me down in my “high-ness” so i really cannot envision myself starting cheers, initiating games and leading an og once all over again. dammits i really regret my decision to be gl for hall foc. but ohwells, since i can’t escape from it, i shall do it well then. i pray the “high-ness” in me can be revived very very soon (not with alcohol thanks!)

 

how true;
“It is perfectly monstrous the way people go about, nowadays, saying things against one behind one’s back that are absolutely and entirely true.”
– “The Picture of Dorian Gray” (Oscar Wilde)

 

 

482781 tons of love,
rui.

reason why.

sorry for the lack of a proper update yesterday, i’ve been too busy sleeping and eating! slept for almost 20 hrs ever since i got home on friday night (thanks chabs!), only waking to eat and see the doctor for my wicked eye infection! thank god i went yesterday cos now i can see that it’s recovering already. ((: and thanks ahlong for nagging me to go.

even though i’m rather sad that everything’s over and i’m gonna miss everyone, i can’t be any happier that this marks the end of all the buzz and pretences. pardon me for exploding on the whole world during the camp, esp the first 3days (you know why). i must say that it has been stressful and i’m glad we don’t have to carry on with this. looking back, i feel kinda left out cos being in the maincomm, we don’t have any OG to belong to or any freshies to call ours. and seeing all the OG photos on facebook, i realise that we have missed out on having one-to-one interaction with the freshies and building relationships with all of them. but nevertheless, i’m very contented with having created and ran a camp that has been so memorable to everyone. love yall!

so i guess now it’s time to start adjusting back to a normal life and getting prepped for hall camp. zomgazers!

 

lubchoos nong time,
rui xxx.

twas’

it’s all over,

finally.

back home

clubbing gang finally went back to our homeland last night!!! ((:

i’m super happy cos LAU QQ and BF went with us! i hope you darlings had fun even though most of us were super high and wasted sorrrrrrryyyyy!

PHOTO POST! ((:

 

WHEEEEEE I LOVE MY FRIENDS! ♥

booooo my both legs are covered with bruises thanks to MISS PAMY TAN for dragging me down when she fell. the bruises are big and swollen and i can’t even straighten my legs la! )): and to ahxu: ok i promise next time when we go zouk we WILL go mambo ok? PROMISE PROMISE!

foc’s like coming in zomg 4 days. and i can’t even go for the boyfriend’s performance thanks to the countless things to do for foc. )): but i’m sure you’d do great! ♥

 

with love in bits and pieces,
rui.