i only care about the words that flutter from your mind

sigh the week has gone by just like that! been so busy with foc zomg. and these were the last few photos that i took with my crop of black hair.

 and then, thanks to LAU QQ chanting into my ears to go dye hair, I WENT TO DO IT. and i’m so sad cos the hairdresser went to highlight then dye instead of dye then highlight. and now, my hair’s a fiery copper colour. chabs says i look like the harry potter phoenix. i’m kinda not used to reddish tinge hair. arg i hope the colour fades soon! )):

TA-DA!

BF WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

i wasn’t ready to face the world when the top of my head looks like it’s burning (the colour of fire) so i’ve decided to giap my hair till the colour fades! director low aka littlefoot aka waterhorse my HO PENG YOU!

darling daniao i miss yu so much these days! we’ve been so busy with foc totally didn’t have time for hearts-to-hearts. WEDNESDAY WE’D MAKE UP FOR LOST TIME WHEEEEEE!

I’M SO GLAD I MET UP WITH THE GIRLS AFTER BANNER PAINTING TODAY. sheila jang i missed yu so much! so much has happened this hols and i’m happy to know that we’re always here for each other.

LEEZHI I LOVE YU MUCHLY!

i think when foc ends, i’d feel sooooo empty. there’s hall foc but well, it’s different la. there’d be suddenly nothing much to do, no morning car rides on Toby to NTU, no gossiping for like almost an hr before the meeting can start proper and so much so much more! )):

tata world.
i’m tired!

 

zzz.

me says

we are often quick to judge others, but slow to blame ourselves.

the more people tell me that i can do something and they have confidence in me, the more i think i can’t. i’m getting worried!

“jealousy is a pitiless thing. why we hold him so close to our hearts, i will never know. he pretends to forgive but he never does.”

you may be the right person, but if you come at the wrong timing, you will still become the wrong person.

‘I’ is the most selfish word.

 

xxx.

what matters

sometimes, it really doesn’t matter where you go. what matters is who you’re with. ((:

 

 

having you is enough for me,
i love you, just this way.

♥

i’ve changed, you didn’t.

this is to a certain someone whom i’ve been bothered about for like the longest time ever:

like what jinyong said, i think you have remained the same person as you were when i first knew you a yr ago, but it’s me who has changed. now, i can hardly tolerate the way you act. maybe i have matured, maybe i wanna stop giving in, and just maybe, i’m giving up already. i really thought i knew you well enough, at least thats what i think and many others think as well. but the truth is, i don’t. you don’t even trust me well enough to tell me what you are going through. i used to think that i’ve found a good buddy in you, and you do feel the same way about me too, but apparently, time has proved me wrong. and sometimes, i worry what you tell others about me, bcos i have heard you complaining about certain characters to me and yet when you are in front of them, you act perfectly normal. it does scare me. i treasure you, ALOT in fact. i don’t know what i should do now, bcos sometimes i don’t even know what to say to you anymore. i hope you know that i’m speaking to you, and i pray we know where to go from here.

sorry to sound so depressing, it’s just that, i had sudden feeling about this issue. alrighty on a happier note, I GOT ALL THE CS MODS AND PE I WANT! ((: ((: ((: but somehow i think i may not be able to handle it. i’d be taking:

COM207 Comm History and Theories
COM258 Integrated Marketing Comm
COM232 Graphic Comm
COM255 Organisational Comm
BS804     Traditional Chinese Medicine (HEH!)

BF said shouldn’t overload, but well, i guess i did. )): still gonna register for Jap elect. BAH! but but, for the first time since yr 1, i’m finally in the same tut class as BF! eggciting wheeeee! love yu! i know i can be like super irritating cos i kept calling yu to ask abt Stars. but yu know la, i super blur don’t know how to use one la ok. soooooo, i’m so glad that i’ve got yu! ♥

and on another happier note, i’ve delivered ALLLLLLLLLL the FOC packages today! started at 5 all zeeee way till like 11. people got car, i only got ‘ka’! but seriously, shernlim, i thank you so so so so so so so so much for taking the time off studying to actually roam around the whole bedok area to deliver the packages. without yur superb sense of direction, i would have really died la ok. LOVE YU SOOOOOO MUCH! and even though i said it once, i wanna say it again: even though i laugh at yu for being niam and having gin-na love, i’m truly happy that yu found someone whose willing to give so much to yu. yu’re a great person who always put others before yurself, so its high time someone comes along to take care of yu. he better dote on yu as much, no, more than i do ok! if not i’d go whack him for yu.

and wahahaha, my boy is funny:
“Regardless of what I’ve done, I’ve already found someone who loves me for who I am. And that’s enough.”  yu are Mushy King No. 1 thanks! pls take good care of yurself. yu’re sick and bogged down with so many responsibilities. drink loadsa water, sleep more (stop staying online till so late!) and rmb i’m just a phone call away. sorry i have been super busy too, but i’d never be too busy for yu ok? ♥

 

till then,
toodles!

cos we’re too young and life’s too fast

i realise i can’t type in proper sentences and blog in those normal essay format anymore. so here’s the numbered list of random stuff again!

1. i’ve been like super flustered yesterday cos i haven’t thought of which mods to take for the coming sem.

2. it doesn’t help that i found out that i was scheduled to work from 8am-1pm on friday, and subject registration starts at 1.30pm. HOW AM I GOING TO RUSH HOME IN HALF AN HR? )): and all of us shud know once yu miss the prosperous 1.30 timing by a slight bit, yu can like say goodbye to all the mods yu want lor.

3. so last night when i was planning my timetable, i realised how “beautiful” it was and how little vacancies there are for the mods i want, esp the CS mods. SURE DIE -.-

4. my wisdom tooth hurts when i chew stuff, but it doesn’t really stop me from eating HEH!

5. like kristle, i’m enjoying the life of not working and i so don’t feel like going back to work tonight. i’d rather have foc meeting everyday!

6. i wanna buy a muji disposable cam cos i’ve seen pretty photos produced by those kinda disposable camers. i think the kodak ones are not bad too. but the thing is, i haven’t even developed the roll inside my action sampler and it has been there for months alr.

7. i miss my boy cos he’s been busy with rehearsals and i’ve been busy with work and foc stuff. we can only talk on msn at night and sms lor. )): finally going out on monday WHEEEEEEEEEEE! yu go plan where to go hor! ((:

(((((((((((((((:

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
Promise you,
For you I will.

♥

 

 

baby, hold your peace.

crazy is what crazy does.

gawd we have been so busy prepping for FOC. the final lap is coming! the words on the tape should be foc2008.wordpress.com. go visit ok! ((:

i miss BFF loads. but she’s like don’t know how many miles away from me! to BFF: what i told yu on msn just now, i’d say it again here. side by side or miles apart, yu are special in my heart. and yu are not forgotten ok, don’t ever say that! what BFF said was true, “what makes you think he isnt a good person?” so this time round, i shall ignore the world and listen to my heart. ((:

i have been feeling so tired these days, my gums are aching as well. i think yet another wisdom tooth is popping out! i can’t bite properly la. )): ok then i shall go watch my ‘Fight Club’ now.

MONDAY MONDAY MONDAY! <3

x,rui.

daze

♥

several things i realised today:
1. the first thing i notice abt a guy when i look at him is his hair. FRINGE ((:
2. stupid pimple has healed but another one is growing in its vicinity. BOOO!
3. i still like Macs even though i work in Mcdelivery.
4. never have prejudgment of things! unwilling to watch ‘Kungfu Panda’ at first but since today is ‘LISTEN TO BF DAY’ and BF wanted to watch, i gave in. IT TURNED OUT TO BE SUPER FUNNY OK! AWESOMENESS, MUST WATCH!
5. i miss volleyball!
6. buffet gonna beome ala carte soon. HEH!

hurry come back to civilisation ok, i’m missing yu here, A LOT.

exposed

EEEEEEEEEEEEEKS!
i think it’s one thing to play around and do wrong things in a club, but another to let it get caught on your friend’s camera, and at the background somemore. what’s more disturbing is that you are supposed to be almost together with someone else whom i know is NOT that guy you’re with.

 

ps. BOOOO i have this pimple that refuses to heal on my right cheek, the blusher area. i wonder if the reason why it doesn’t heal is cos i salivate when i sleep and my cheek is resting on the wet spot on the pillow the whole night so it sorta prevents it from healing. got such thing not?!

1,2,3,4

strong men tire and fall, what more yours truly who have been working like non-stop for the past week! BOOOO TO FEVER AND SORE THROAT! now i can’t answer calls cos i’d sound like a bloody raspy frog croaking away. MUST BE ALL THE LATE NIGHTS AND ALCOHOL LA! now i can’t be happier nua-ing at home just watching my L word.

after wed’s zouk session with the girls, we concluded that we are seriously getting too old already. we were like damn tired by 2am. and we have been going so much that we actually can anticipate which song will follow after which! HOW SCARY. sooooo, we’ve decided to temporarily retire from the scene for awhile. moreover, with our gang getting smaller and smaller, it’s not as fun as last time anymore. the gross crowd didn’t help matters la. nevertheless, i wanna thank my girls for being there for me all the time, not judging me for what i do and accepting me for who i am. this is for you dearies- PAMPERS, CHABS AND DANIAOS.

and zomg zomg.  I WANNA THANK GOD FOR MY RESULTS! ((: during foc meeting yesterday, i was still haolian-ing that i won’t able to see my results cos i didn’t pay my hostel bills. then that stupid long said, ” doesn’t affect, sure can see one.” then i was like SHIAT! so we scrolled down, and cos the first result was BS803 and when i saw a B i was like sian jit pua cos it’s a bad start what! then further down, i saw the A’s popping out! ((: ((: ((: ((: ((: so i got A for 205 and 206 (cannot believe i can get A for 206! ok la credit goes to all who have helped me in my assignment before, esp BF and LONG cos they kept chanting in my ear that this grade should be shared with them.) A- for 208 was a surprise too cos i’ve all the while been not doing well in my tests and assignments. B+ for 202 was slightly saddening but ok la i dont wanna hiam so much. so irritating i shouldn’t have SU-ed my biz law la! )):

but no matter what, i’m already very grateful for my grades. like lala said, MY HARD WORK PAID OFF! congrats to all my friends whose results improved too!

hello everyone, this is the buncha people that i have spent the past months gruelling over $$$$ and proposals with. LOVE THEM MUCHIES! (BF yu look like a monkey in the photo wahahas!) the last month to chiong, we can do darlings!

you know, i think some people are so unpredictable, but so expectable. arg they’re so irritating! trying to keep up with what their minds are thinking is damn tiring ok. i shall just let go and stop guessing anymore.